Life For Rent

諗左好耐
亦搵左好耐
都唔知搵咩歌黎形容我而家的心情好...

FYP Report 終於完左
但我卻冇因此而開心
反而有點兒失落~
有朋友今日問我:「你有咩感覺呢？」
我只能夠回答:「好似冇左寄託咁呀」
跟住佢0既回應俾左我好大啟示
突然間好似俾佢點醒左我咁:
「可能係覺得fyp係大學的終結吧...... 完了fyp，便完成一切~」

已經完成一切嘛?!
不! 我們還有功課要做!
但係佢講得0岩
個feel 同fyp 已經好唔同喇~

FYP 還有present
但已經不被我當作一回事
經歷了一年FYP 的洗禮
只係短短一個present
大家都不覺得很重要了...
只係想早早搞掂，早早了事...(不是草草啊!)

噚晚同今日我都諗左好耐
究竟係咩令到我咁唔開心呢?!
係失落?! 係疲累?!
原來不單止是沒有了寄託
還有不能再為想逃避的東西找藉口...

好少0係blog 打咁多自己0既事
仲要係內心0既想法
本來想0係diary 度寫
但係每次0係我唔開心0既時候
總會搵一D 歌黎聽
等我自己舒服D...

今次揀黎0既呢一首歌
係我噚晚不斷loop 住0既歌
最初聽到呢首歌已經好鍾意
仲記得係因為睇完survivor superstar 某一集之後
明珠台就0係度播
於是我就0係度聽
聽完已經好鍾意~
但係竟然唔記得左歌名...
就0係我好努力咁尋找緊之際
有位朋友竟然將成首歌0既歌詞send 左過黎俾我~
嘩~ 當時真係好驚訝!
原來果位朋友都係0係同一時間聽到呢首歌~
又係覺得好聽!
就係咁，果一排就成日loop 住呢首歌~
不過呢首歌果時俾我0既感覺
係好有"survivor" feel
因為呢首歌總係俾我一種"流浪"0既feel
而survivor 就剛好表現左呢種滄桑的感覺

時至今時今日呢一刻
呢首歌依然俾到我同樣的感覺
只係而家聽起黎
就多左一份孤獨感
不過可能係我果時忽略左
其實survivor 就已經係一個孤軍作戰0既遊戲~
只係我而家先發覺
原來呢首歌仲俾到我一種咁0既感覺...

有一句歌詞我係特別喜歡的:
「It's just a thought, only a thought」





I haven't ever really found a place that I call home
I never stick around quite long enough to make it
I apologize that once again I'm not in love
But it's not as if I mind
that your heart ain't exactly breaking

It's just a thought, only a thought

But if my life is for rent and I don't learn to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine

I've always thought
that I would love to live by the sea
To travel the world alone
and live more simply
I have no idea what's happened to that dream
Cos there's really nothing left here to stop me

It's just a thought, only a thought

But if my life is for rent and I don't learn to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine

If my life is for rent and I don't learn to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine

While my heart is a shield and I won't let it down
While I am so afraid to fail so I won't even try
Well how can I say I'm alive

If my life is for rent and I don't learn to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine

If my life is for rent and I don't learn to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine
Cos nothing I have is truly mine
Cos nothing I have is truly mine
Cos nothing I have is truly mine